I can't get over him,.
Then i remember am committed and it dawns on me i can't have you. I feel like am messing up life..i can't do much in this state. Who is it. Do i need it. Why do i always feel powerless around him. I don't trust he feels that. I mean. Probably he's just having fun at home. I mean its holiday. I could be needing a break from every one and every thing. I don't understand anything anymore. I don't know. I just feel bad. I know its wrong to be in love with two guys. Maybe i love one O mean Its only sensible. What if he's not as crazy as I am. What if its just a whimp of the moment and am making a big deal out of everything. O mean, does he like me. Is he crazy about us being more than what we are. Does he even care 😏 I miss landing on his lips and ravaging them. Every time I hug him i hope he will lift my head, give me a long penetrating gaze, then say, fuck society, fuck everything that isn't us😑😑and i love you too. But its a...