A face remembered.
"Crazy, loosing my mind,going bananas, death roll for the asylum"......I am listing all the adjectives I am using to describe this bridge .The thin line between choosing to let go and choosing to stay, between here and there,now and then,you and me. I kept my head above water when you made everything water under the bridge. Let me show you how much, gallon by gallon .Maybe then you will understand why you're flogging a dead horse, why pursuing me is wearing your spirit out and driving me to the brink of my emotions. The ship sunk!another took sail. I guess you were so wrapped up in your head you didn't even realize you were flying all over the place while we were drowning .This is done"
He looked at that text again.Checked its sender and wandered how he got here.Casey was leaving.From the tone of the text,she already did a long time ago,only he was realizing it then. Just how blinded was he?Did he get that lost? He knew deep down he loved her ,but he was a messed up man .Holding a relationship for three years, you would say familiarity breeds contempt or settling sprouts complacency. I mean,you could say anything. Henry knew where the rain started beating him.
He woke up that summer morning and headed to Casey's house.They would do the normal things that couples do ,hang out,hide behind the secret lover gate, maybe a hand in the wrong place,maybe a word or two to invoke what's beneath calm composed faces and who knows......
That morning,everything was magnificent but at some point Henry got online to check an update from a friend.That was the first nail to that coffin, if only he knew that was his downfall....Instead ,it was a text from his previous girlfriend who had gone missing in action for two years .For some reason, he always thought it never mattered,but for some reason, that text shook him to his bones.I guess it is true first love never dies. He immediately came up with a reason to leave and having a very caring girl, it was granted without much discussion .It was built on trust.It was mutual.It was love.
Henry could feel the battle of will inside .The storm was building up within and like a raging tornado ,threatened to destroy the only happy place he knew .He arrived home and did what we call, sending risky texts.Risky because he didn't know if he could handle what was ahead .Laura was gorgeous, appealing, you couldn't help but fall in love with her.And he fell and fell deep .But two years of nothing but dead air and silence made him believe that he was ready again. The ogre you know can't eat you or so he reassured himself.
That night, He talked to her ,it was almost an immediate spark ,like she never left, she became the centre of his universe one more time, source of the butterflies in his stomach once more and she infiltrated his fantasies again. For the first time,Henry forgot to text his girl he was home ,he never called to say good night and didn't ask about the rest of her day.Red flag number one.
But hey, aren't girls understanding and all you have to do is explain? Henry could feel himself falling back to the hole he had crawled out of. One ,two ,many days a fortnight.Casey decided she would take this to the table and called him out in his absence. Even when they met,it was like he wasn't there, It was the end of the beginning. She looked at him and wanted answers but what would he tell her?
Oh,there is this face from the past that is back to the present and she dazzles me and I can't breath when she's around.And she's my first love and I didn't tell you she existed because I didn't think she would come back .He could feel deep down inside that it was lame and dishonest.
As he turned to walk away that evening, he knew deep down that he had a lot to fix......."am I man enough?" He kept asking himself
To be continued.
He looked at that text again.Checked its sender and wandered how he got here.Casey was leaving.From the tone of the text,she already did a long time ago,only he was realizing it then. Just how blinded was he?Did he get that lost? He knew deep down he loved her ,but he was a messed up man .Holding a relationship for three years, you would say familiarity breeds contempt or settling sprouts complacency. I mean,you could say anything. Henry knew where the rain started beating him.
He woke up that summer morning and headed to Casey's house.They would do the normal things that couples do ,hang out,hide behind the secret lover gate, maybe a hand in the wrong place,maybe a word or two to invoke what's beneath calm composed faces and who knows......
That morning,everything was magnificent but at some point Henry got online to check an update from a friend.That was the first nail to that coffin, if only he knew that was his downfall....Instead ,it was a text from his previous girlfriend who had gone missing in action for two years .For some reason, he always thought it never mattered,but for some reason, that text shook him to his bones.I guess it is true first love never dies. He immediately came up with a reason to leave and having a very caring girl, it was granted without much discussion .It was built on trust.It was mutual.It was love.
Henry could feel the battle of will inside .The storm was building up within and like a raging tornado ,threatened to destroy the only happy place he knew .He arrived home and did what we call, sending risky texts.Risky because he didn't know if he could handle what was ahead .Laura was gorgeous, appealing, you couldn't help but fall in love with her.And he fell and fell deep .But two years of nothing but dead air and silence made him believe that he was ready again. The ogre you know can't eat you or so he reassured himself.
That night, He talked to her ,it was almost an immediate spark ,like she never left, she became the centre of his universe one more time, source of the butterflies in his stomach once more and she infiltrated his fantasies again. For the first time,Henry forgot to text his girl he was home ,he never called to say good night and didn't ask about the rest of her day.Red flag number one.
But hey, aren't girls understanding and all you have to do is explain? Henry could feel himself falling back to the hole he had crawled out of. One ,two ,many days a fortnight.Casey decided she would take this to the table and called him out in his absence. Even when they met,it was like he wasn't there, It was the end of the beginning. She looked at him and wanted answers but what would he tell her?
Oh,there is this face from the past that is back to the present and she dazzles me and I can't breath when she's around.And she's my first love and I didn't tell you she existed because I didn't think she would come back .He could feel deep down inside that it was lame and dishonest.
As he turned to walk away that evening, he knew deep down that he had a lot to fix......."am I man enough?" He kept asking himself
To be continued.
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