I never expected him to move on. I know how that sounds, but had you fallen in love with him, you'd understand why I was hung on the idea that he would still be my perfect. I wanted it to be him. I really did. His smile got the best of me. He had this brown eyes that sparkled.when he spoke his voice got to the pit of my stomach.He had this gaze that was sometimes focused, other times it wandered like someone on an adventure . His face was a perfect fit in my hands and when he placed his hands on my face, everything else was cast into Oblivion.

That is the man who expected me to sweep everything under the rug. The man who made my skin tingle and my body burn with desire at the thought of him.The one who kissed me like I held the very breath of life for his survival. His lips reminded me of our apple orchad with a tease of mint .

This man made me fall in love with myself as whole. He made me feel valued and honored. ( To be continued 


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